Fridays

I saw someone complain on Facebook about how it's not Friday yet and it won't be for a few more days.  I couldn't help, but to think about it and here's what I came up with:

I no longer fully understand the anticipation for Friday.  Sure, no more classes, or getting up early for those who only work or go to school those days, but I still don't get it.

I'll admit that I do still wait for Fridays, but they seem next to nothing without you.  I wait for the day we can be together for longer than a few hours, longer than just a day or two.  Even a week doesn't feel the same. 

Waiting for Friday is like waiting for the sun to come up in the morning.  It'll come.  Waiting to find out when I get to be with you again is like trying to figure out a ridiculous math problem on two hours' sleep.  It's just difficult.  But, I know I'll get it eventually and I know I'll see you eventually.  It's just tough, that's all it is.

I am sad that we don't get to see each other often.  The feeling of waiting for Friday is nothing like the feeling of waiting for you.  A lot of the times, it's lonely and hard and I just can't stand the feeling, but I'll see you again.  I know I will.  I just need to hang on and fight the crowd.  I have to fight past the work and the people because at the end of all that will be you. 

I really can't wait to see you again.  Even briefly.  You make everything feel better all the time.  I don't know how, but you do.

I just wanted to say that I miss you.  But I love you even more.

Yours Always,
V

You Can Do This!

Hi Love,

I know it's been stressful for the both of us, me with what's been going on over the weekend, you with your roommates and whatnot, and both of us are heading into exam season.

I just wanted to say that, no matter what happens, I still love you and I know you can do it.  You can accomplish your dream.  All you need is a little push, that's all.  I can help you with that. =]

Anyway, I hope you're doing well otherwise and I can't wait to see you soon!

Love,
V

Exhausted, but moving along

I'm so tired today.  Tired of having to do these things and just tired in general.  But, I have to push on.  I know I do because it's my way of dealing with not being with you as often as either of us would like to be.  I have to finish these assignments.  I need to kick down these road blocks to get just that much closer to being with you again.

The exams will pull me even closer than the assignments will.  I really can't wait to just be with you one day and not care about anything at all.  I know that when we're able to be together these days, there's worry about getting a job, what the following days or school year will bring.  But, we'll be together the way we want to one day.  I hope.

I'm so tired of it all, but I'm hanging on and climbing the rope just to be closer with you again.  I won't let go no matter how tired I am.

One day.

Love,
V

Studying

I know you're stressed.  I am too, believe me.  You can do it.  I have the same feeling too.  We just have to keep trying to do what we can to study.  Maybe we'll do a thing where, if we study something for an hour, we can reward ourselves and each other by spending a certain amount of time texting or Skype calling each other.  Then, do it again.

There is NOTHING wrong with you.  We all have trouble focusing sometimes.  It's not a natural thing to be studying anyway.  If anything, we should be basking in the sun, hunting for food, sleeping, like all the other creatures out there. 

I wanted to put extra effort into studying this year too and I'm having just the same problems as you are.  You know what our biggest problem is, though?  It's the Internet.  It makes everything so easy to access and it's always there to distract us with something.  We need to learn to live without it again like we did when we were really young.  That's part of the reason why I want to see how much of the summer I can go without it.

I need around the same mark for English at least so that I can reapply.  If not, I'm going to have to just keep trying to up that English mark to get back in.  If I can't up it with this term's marks, then I may be spending extra time here...I don't know if that's how it works, but I get the feeling it is.

We'll be able to do it somehow.  Have some faith, Love.

I love you.

V

Midnight madmess

I feel tired, kinda. But I don't feel like sleeping.

I just love random thoughts of you through out the day. Sometimes I don't have too much thoughts about you, on others, I can't keep my mind off you. But when you do pop up in my head, it makes me happier.

Really wish you're beside me though. I know you know that.

Anyway...

On one hand I feel like I have enough time, on the other, I still feel stressed out about assignments. And exams. Oh man. I feel like I'm going to fail some classes. But I can't pull myself to study either. What's wrong with me? ):

I really wanted to put in an extra effort in studying this year. I don't know why... I'm just not used to it I guess. I have to get my butt to do more studying!

I hope I can at least pass everything. But then I need a 70% for 20 bio courses, which I have none yet....

Man...

Love,

KP

Just thought you should know.

Hi again, Love!

You are so adorable when you're falling asleep.  Even if I'm only seeing you fall asleep through a fuzzy Skype video call. 

Stay cute.  It's one of the best things about you.

I love you! <3

V

Obstacles

Hey, Love.

You know that I hate we're so far apart and having to deal with a bunch of struggles without you here to help hold me up.  But, every midterm, project, essay, whatever, I look at them like little obstacles that bring me closer to you, or closer to the next time I'll see you. 

Thinking of things this way makes it so much easier to be here because I know I'll see you again.  I just need to fight off these things first.  I know you'll meet me half way through this journey since you have to do these things too. 

If I didn't look at these things like obstacles to get passed so that I can see you again, I don't think I'd be able to bear this long distance relationship at all.

Just something I thought you might like to see/hear.

It still hurts to be away from you, but I know I'll be with you again.

I love you.

V